so I got a job interview tomorrow, in Marketing and Customer Service.

BTW, I've sent messages out now to both Pster and THB. I don't know if THB will join us, but figured I'd give it a try. I imagine Death did his part already. Anyway, I sent Pster a PM at GameSpy since…I just can't find his email anymore!

my interview went well, they want me back in today, for an all day thing, this job seems demanding and I think it'll suck up alot of my free time, for starters the hours are 11:30 till 8, and theres a lot of traveling involved, one guy was going to LA on friday for 5 days first 2 days are holiday too, lucky git.

I've been to hell and back this last week. I was put on a new med I'd never even heard of, let alone taken. The drug is called Lamotrigine. It's an anticonvulsant, and it's suppose to take away anxiety and ward off some symptoms of depression. Well, that would've been well and good, had it not been for the fact I had an allergic reaction to it. Last night (Thursday), I was very close to going to the emergency room, but I just didn't want to when I thought that my reaction wasn't "life-threatening" at least, in my opinion.

The good news is I am back on Xanax. I thought Ativan was supposed to be like second from the top when it came to the strength of Benzodiazapines (Klonopin, Ativan, Xanax, and Valium.) Turns out, it's not so much about sheer strength, but the drugs are a little different from eachother. Ativan has a longer onset effect whereas Xanax won't last as long, but will hit harder.

I'm okay tonight, save for the fact I have a very nasty cut inside my lower lip. It itched so damn bad, that like a dumbshit, I scratched it with my (very sharp) teeth. I got something that's made by the company that makes Blistex. It's supposed to numb the area, and create a "patch" if you will, on the sore. Applying it is absolute hell.

Though, the sore could be something else. If this were GSF, I wouldn't have the bollocks to ask such a question, but you all are decent folk, so I can ask and not feel shameful. (Plus, I know everyone here is an adult, so it's not as if I'm posting something explicit that kids shouldn't see. Anyway, how long can Herpes lay dormant in your system before you'd ever have an outbreak? I haven't had a partner in nearly 10 years, but could it be something that just never surfaced? I see my doctor on Friday. Should I ask him to test me? My biggest fear is him testing me for all STD's and it turns out I'm HIV-positive. Well, that's OCD; always wanting to think of the worst.

And on a final note (and no pun intended; I'm merely using the Brit slang I've adopted), I recently went back to smoking fags. I bought a pack last week, and it's still almost full, but I'd run into an old friend, he lit up, offered me one, and I smoked it.

Naoko said:Oh my god, I want to go to the Dr. House crazy asylum too!

I saw it in the season finale last year, and all I could think of was what a beautiful, stoic, and yet…almost menacing structure that is. I have four pics I downloaded of Greystone, (known as Mayfield Asylum to non-regular House fans). And I think this may be a pic from the show. That car looks an awful lot like Wilson's.

I don't know what the new Greystone Hospital looks like. I couldn't find any pics of it except a very close-up pic where all you see is a little part of the main enterance and this woman hugging a doctor, thankful she was in a new hospital. (What the hell is wrong with my memory??? I can't remember how to spell the "e" word above! I thought about entrance, but it's not as though I am using the word that means to go catatonic. It's just like I've almost forgotten how to spell!)

Anyway, onward. Alons-y! In another topic, I spoke of going legit. Well, I fell upon an ethical dilemma. (Hey, I just used spell-checker, and I spelled dilemma correctly!) I don't know if I mentioned it, but my old PS2 (Model # 70001) died. So, I had to get a new one. I was fearful as to what this new PS2 (Model # 90001) could do vs. my old one. A friend of mine had later on bought a 75001, then a 77001, and they wouldn't run some of my games, or my CodeBreaker. Hooray!!! The 90001 does all!!!

But the dilemma I referred to is about a realization I had a couple nights ago. I realized my 70001 was…well…stolen. I ordered it through BMG in October 2005, but I never paid for it…not one payment. Truth is, it isn't paid for, and now, BMG no longer exists, so I am racking my brain trying to figure out how to find balance. Whether any of you believe in God, karma, or any higher power, I just want to find balance so I can clear my conscience.